AAAAhhh!!!! XD XD I'm excited!!

Metallica are coming to CHCH!! And Mum said she'll think about giving me my birthday money early to get a ticket XD Which means probably yes!! And Tez and Elle are coming too!!

I'm so excited right now.

Sub Machine Gun : D.I.F.S. said (10:21 p.m.):
Hey, Som. Just thought I'd leave you an offline message.
Where have you been? Are you okay? How is Perry? Is everything going okay with school/your family/Sarah/your friends?
I know we don't talk so much lately, but I really do miss you, Som, and you're still the coolest kid in Australia; still too cute to shoot.
And you're still fantastic, no matter what is going on.
You're the most creative person, and I don't think your fantastic ideas are recognised for what they are. Your writing always makes me think - your adjectives are always the best.
If perhaps you're busy or things are going wrong, just never forget that I'm always your Sam if you want =)
Anyway, I hope you get this message because I want you to know that.
xx

On

Again

So happy to be able to talk to Som again ^^



Thursday will be rad as. The Mint Chicks and Disasteradio in show at The Civic.
1337 45 XD

James and I are writing a graphic novel and I'm illustrating it. ^^ FUN!!

Today was probably the worst day of the year. Here it is in detail (in what time I have left):
Okay, so it's the 6th of December 2007, and that means that My Chemical Romance is playing in Auckland tonight. I am not there. All because "my attitude sucks." ie, my mother wouldn't let me go because she was angry for a month.
So that was a great way to start the day. I mourned by wearing my My Chem hoodie and t-shirt. But I had to go to effing school for book collection. Only thing is, they wouldn't take my fucking books because they said I was late. I was late because I was talking to the dean about my subjects for next year. tHere were clashes. That means that I don't get to do web design and I have to do biology. Which is okay, I guess. I just really wanted to do web design.
Anyway, because they wouildn't take my books I have to go back next week to do it and I didn't get a year book.
Then Elle got to school and she was making me kind of sad because i hadn't seen in her in a week and she jsut wanted to leave :( But that was okay. Her and Chris and I went for lunch after that. It was fun :) Some scary stories about maggots though. Don't ask.
By the way, I haven't the time to fix errors.
After that I went shopping with Mum and Heather and it was tiring and I got blisters and stuff. But I got new togs.
Then got home and my TV was broken. The screen won't turn on. So I went to the lounge to watch tv in there because my chem was all overr the music channel. Aunty was like "We don't ahve to listen to fucking crap I hope." and I was like "Yeah you do bevcause my tv is broken" and then mum ent me out so I watched tv in her room. And cried.
I was txting ben and he was asking why I seemed upset so I told him, but it was a bit angry... He said I sounded really disrespectful or whatver and then he got really mad at me and was like, completely questioning our relationship... Which is silly. All I did was accidentally snap at him..
Oh, and my stomach hurts because I'm due for my monthly.
And I did badly in exams.
And Somerley is the only person/thing who is truly making me happy today :) Thank you hun.

Anyway, I'm out of time. No time to read this through and fix it, or make sure it makes sense.
Please, have a better day than I did.

xx

I'm banned until Thursday.
Long story short, this one was really unfair.

Anyway, I have a French exam in like, an hour, and I'm pretty much shitting myself. I suck at French and I can't type at the moment either.
Ugh. I'm going to die.

Speaking of dying, I'm dying my hair tomorrow, hopefully. Purple. Yup ^^

Also, I have no money on my phone and I miss Elle. I should just ring her. Duhh. When I thought of that she was at work though. Meh. Some time.

So, until tomorrow, since Saturday, I'm banned.
I'll be on tomorrow.
I drew a really awesome picture yesterday. It won't be on DA for a bit though. I still need to edit it some.
Yup, anyway, well, I'm at school and I'm waiting for my French tutorial. I purposely got here early so that I could come on here. Good thinking, I thought. Boy have my unchecked deviations built up since Friday :|

Well, Christmas in the Park was aaaaaaawesome. I got pretty drunk. As was the plan of the whole thing. It felt good to not care about anything for a night. Then when I got home Mum was all "Have you been drinking?" and I was all "No.." Hah. In the morning she said I looked hung over, but I really wasn't. I don't get hung over.
Well, on Thursday, Elle, Steph, I will be having an end-of-year thing at Steph's which will involve more getting drunk.
Then there's nothing until new years, and nothing for ages after that. See, I allow myself five days a year in which to get drunk. The rest are a no-no.
Anyway, this keyboard is the biggest piece of crap since spilling-noodles-all-over-my-bed-and-having-no-blankets-last-night-because-ther-were-in-the-wash.

So, see ya ^^
And Som, I miss you ^^

There comes a certain time in one's life when they realise just how much they suck at said life. For me, this time was at around 9.30 this morning when I, firstly, got lost trying to find my papers for my maths exam, and secondly, exploded in a split second upon reading the first question. (That was a really long sentence)
There were three hours for six papers, and I deliberately ignored the "sketch and interpret graphs" one until the end.
I started with algebra because it was fresh in my mind, but I ended up spending like, three quatres of an hour on it, when I realised that the doodling wasn't helping much

So, you know those moments where you'd much rather be playing your instrument or lying on your bed, staring at the ceiling, and being deafened by music? It was one of those moments. I had two songs in my head: Rainy Mondays - Shiny Toy Guns, and the one from Soon Yie's YouTube thing.. Man. Great songs. ^^
I'm sure there's one of those people in every exam who can't help but tap or hum, or pop their lips, or click their teeth.. And I'm disappointed to report that that person is me. Hah. Silly me *shakes head*

Well, I left half an hour before the end. I figured that my brain was full of everything else and nothing was coming out of it that would be of any use anyway

ANYWAY! I've started a new drawing. It's Kazuki Shindo from Punch.
Yeah, I started a new manga Mainly because it was there and I had to stop myself from getting volumes 17 and 18 of Bleach, since I want to read them in order.

So that's me in a jar ^^
Now I'm off to a French tutorial. Man, I did not want to get up this morning... :|
Have a great day! XD

Oh my. I'm about certain that my mother hates me.
Again, last night I was not allowed on the computer. Because I hadn't done my homework. So I did my homework. THen She was all "Have you finished?" And I said "Yes, but I still have my key signatures to learn. But I've got weeks and weeks for that."
THen she made me try to learn all sixteen of them before I could go on. It's impossible to learn them all in one night. I learned four in, like three quatres of an hour.
C Major - no sharps or flats
G Major - F#
D Major - F# C#
A Major - F# C# G#


Try learning sixteen of those, and remembering them. It's impossible all in one night.

On a brighter note: I got Part 2 of The Umbrella Academy, Apocolypse Suite yesterday.
It was really good, as anticipated. Now I have to wait another three weeks for Part 3, but tha'ts okay.

There was a photo of Gerard in the back of this one and his hair made me laugh. It was a huge mess :|
There was also Gabriel Ba in the photo. I'm sure I've seen him somehwere before. LOTS perhaps?

Anyway, I'm the only one left int he library now, so see. ya ^^
Please, have a better day than I will. What with my detention at lunch and all too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, FRANK IERO

Man, it's been so long since I've listened to this album and it's made me as happy as it does at the moment.
I think it's because with the hot weather, and the music it's reminding me of the end of last year. Besides the being at my dad's part.. Like, before I went there. That was one awesome end of year. And PHeo and Jette, and I had that aw3esome sleepover. With the cream. LOL! Good times and a half :P
(I have a goopy eye. My eyelashes are out of place o.O)

It's also my Dad's birthday today. This time last year, I was in Australia and it was 6:38am and I would have been trying to get to sleep with my little brothers leaving on the damn light while I was trying to sleep and I think this song (Cancer) was probvably playing.

Anyway, the bell rang - got to go to class.

I know it's not the 31st in America yet, but I hope Frank has a kick ass birthday XD
Oh yeah, and Dad too...
^o)

Live long, my friends, and prosper.

Okay, last night was actually kind of fun with the relatives. It was only my Aunty Paula, and my (not the one living here) great aunty.
For dinner, there was no room for me at the table so I sat in the lounge. That was okay. I didn't mind really. But then I was watching a movie and Aunty Margret (not the one living here. again. lol.) was like "Sammy, come and have some drinks with your auntys." So I did.. Haha.
Mum was all "Only three shots for you. And I want you to sip them." Well, I didn't sip them. And I didn't only have three. I had like, five shots, a Kahlua and coke, a vodka and coke, and a glass of wine. I had fun.
At one point, Mum, Aunty Paula and I were in the lounge dancing to 80s music. Lol! It was funny watching them try to dance. And Frank was watching which got me thinking: Imagine how funny we'd look without being able to hear the music, since he's deaf and all. Yeah.
Good times. Then this morning I felt all queasy. But that's cool.


Uhm, on a completely different note: this afternoon was so terrible. I needed to go to Steph's to teach her brother bass, but Mum wouldn't take me and it was waaaaay too late to bus because I'd have to catch two buses and it'd take 45 minutes. Mum and I had a huge fight and My Chem came up and how she wasn't changing her mind... And a bunch of other stuff. She doesn't really pay any attention to me, you know? I asked her if she wanted to hear my speech and she said no. I asked her if she wanted to see the new poster I'm doing, and she said no. I asked her if she wanted to hear my composition and she said no...
Anyway, a bunch of other stuff happened too, and Mum screamed "I'll fucking thump you!" at me and then I screamed "I don't give a fucking shit if you hit me. If you do it then I won't have to do it myself." to which she replied "Go to your room!!!" and so I did. Punching a bit of a crack in the hallway wall on the way there. That made Heather (sister) cry because she got scared because of our yelling.
Then, like, half an hour later she came into my room and I was a crying mess, and I was trying to ring Steph to tell her that I couldn't make it and that I was REALLY REALLY sorry (which I still am. I feel terrible), but it was engaged. Anyway, Heather came in and was all "Take deep breathes (lol. Breathe as a plural) Stop shaking Sammy *holds me still so that I can't shake* It's okay, Sammy. It doesn't matter" etc
Well, before she came in, someone had put coat hangers in my room which I didn't want there because they weren't mine and people always put things they don't have anywhere for in my room. Well, I threw those down the hallway because I was really angry and two of them broke. Mum came in while Heather was trying to make me feel better and it turns out that they're Heather's "favourite coat hangers for $10 each!" (why would you pay that anyway??)Then Heather started crying and wouldn't look at me because I broke them and I felt soooooo bad because she was being really kind to me. Well, that made my crying worse (no I hadn't stopped by then)and Mum just scowled at me.
Anyway, long story sort of short, I was crying for two hours straight (no kidding) and got terrible skin and really dehydrated. I forced myself to stop crying because my teeth were hurting like fuck and I was getting ear ache. Because I was so dehydrated, I tried having a drink but I couldn't swallow and was dry retching anyway.
I heard that crying makes you lose weight. Oh gosh, I hope so. I'm sure all of that quivering and the convulsions must have had some impact on my stomach.
Anyway, I wrote a poem. Want to read it? No? Well, I'll post it anyway. It's a little disturbing, and I hate to say but every word is true...

"
I want to be bulimic.
That way I could fade away
physically,
to match my fading away
socially,
because nothing's in order
but it has to be.
I wish I wasn't in your way,
but just keep ignoring me and
I'll try to disappear.
But I'm too much in the way
of anything.
I can't help but let you down
It's who I am,
but I really wish it wasn't.
Take me away
before I do it myself.
I have to get out of your way
somehow.
"


Yeah...

(I have relatives around at the moment) Well, they just shut the door between the rooms we're in. That means they're either (a) talking about me, (b) talking about stuff they don't want me to hear, or (c) some other third thing...
I feel so damn wanted in this house.





Sorry that was so long and you had to read it all :(